When there’s a will GOD guides the way

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1993 it was love at first sight for me.Cast differences,immaturity on my behalf,just left convent school and felt like a free bird in a coed college.Met my now husband through a common friend and then all that followed was one perfect being deeply in love with a surprised bipolar personality( that’s me).We continued our true love for three long beautiful years convincing and trying to elope if given a deaf ear.Out love was pure and so in 1996 we got traditionally married and became man and woman.Was beautiful for the first year as we created our bundle of joy,our daughter in 1997.Yes those days people were not so career oriented and though both our family’s were not very well to do we all had one thing in common “love and unity”.Postpartum depression hit my already existing bipolar.Needless to explain the pain,sufferings and helplessness in the whole family.Things got a little settled inside me due to the 6 shock treatments that were prescribed by my physiatrist.I was 23 then,when the urge to make my family complete started bothering only me.My hubby and our whole family was against it as they were told another delivery would make me land into an asylum!!!

It was my deep desire and strong faith in GOD that I delivered a pre-matured baby boy in the seventh month.Weak and tiny was our son due to the heavy medications I had taken.He was born at 1:04 and for three minutes the doctors and me didn’t hear his crying.Thanks to science they injected him and got him into this world.It was my faith in GOD and I knew it.When he was 24 days old he had already been pricked 19 times due to his two repeated febrile seizures.Looking at his pain made me forget my own bipolar pain.His first word was out when he was 4.Speech therapy and again my faith in GOD made our son the most cleverest handsome hunk.My bipolar was a member too while both our kids were growing.

Today we are proud parents of a beautiful 16 year old daughter and a normal speaking 13 year old taller than his own parents son!!! When I look back into our family history,I have just a few regrets about some of our family members taking their voyage to heaven and a little regrets for our family’s helplessness.All this only strengthens my faith in him and I know deep beneath bad times are over!!!

Until Death Do Us Apart

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Valentines day is here
South is you west is me
Opposites attract
Distance speeds our pulse

Was love at first sight
Proud of my instincts
Among the thousands
My heart beat for you

Long years of hardships
Our love is a deep abyss
Clear as crystal
I will forever love you

Know me

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Asking for it this early
Is my hearts expectation
Knowing our love is ancient
We moved mountains hand in hand

Knowing too my tag of broken promises
I am still the old impulsive
Trying hard to keep up to your pace
Lost a lot of years dreaming my space

Our blood groups contrasting
We loved and created our kin
The ovary was mine
Thank you our infants shaped up fine

Rain has hit the desserts
Autumn comes with it’s own wish
This time the seeds I sow
Will make it harvest with my efforts

Tears

Tears are our voice of plea
Screeching for some mercy
Begging urging to see
The oceanic tides in we

Right was I sobbing was me
Crocodile were not we
Violent is our thirst
Archaic are our thoughts

Blood is our food
I fall in our traps
In hibernation we go
Once again hope I see

Apologise for your efforts
Promises are to be broken
Blame is my fame
Amphibian are we

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Magical Amritsar

Golden temple~Day time view
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The craving of seeing the golden temple (Gurudwara) as we call it in India had been there in me ever since I got married in 1996.Almost everyone in my family had some time visited Amritsar.Had heard about its beauty and bliss all the time but my eyes yet had to capture the sight.On our 18 anniversary knowing my inner long awaited wish my husband surprised me by announcing two days prior that we would be present on our anniversary at the golden temple.It made me happy beyond words could express.As I had heard so much about it over the years,on reaching there I felt speechless and enjoyed every moment as I was granted my wish and my husband was along with me.The temples atmosphere inside is so magical and serene it makes you forget any grief or pain that exists. The people inside are so helpful and smiling, I didn’t mind enhancing my knowledge about their religious practice from a stranger.One has to cover their head totally before entering the temple,removing their footwear and giving it to volunteers who opt for doing that service ( called SEVA in India) .There are taps installed so the people can wash their legs before entering the temple.The kitchen is so large and the vessels made me wonder about the amount of strength one requires to stir while cooking.Anyone who would like to volunteer for help is welcome with open arms by the kitchen as every lunch and dinner is served to people who like eating in the temple( it is called LANGAR in India) My personal view about the taste of the food cooked is beyond comparison to any five star hotel food.We both were excited to see the temple in the night time.

Golden temple~Night time view

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The night view was enticing and illuming.Was difficult to come to a conclusion of comparison.Was once again speechless and just wanted to sit there for hours together and capture the beauty and admire the thoughts of man describing his love for GOD!

Wagah border

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We were fortunate in gaining a VIP pass for entering the ceremony of the flags hoisting which is a daily routine on the border by a dear college friend.Was quiet a heart palpating moment for us to see the parade and the expressions the soldiers had while performing it.The huge crowd on our side was equal on the other side of the gate.The almost 45 minutes ceremony was indeed breath taking.There was no other feelings than that of patriotism I could feel in and around me.My personal opinion that I derived after the whole ceremony was over was “Peace is possible,Wars kill”.

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